If anyone tells you otherwise, they are liars.
Or they are still inexperienced in such matters.
Or the have been exquisitely fortunate in their choice of lovers.
So far
- Aki-no-hashi (1311)
I suppose every relationship has it's ups and downs. This would be one of the downs in ours. I hope it doesn't drag on for too long, but even if it does, I'll wait Zoe. I'll wait for you to get everything sorted out, I'll help you in any way I can. I will do anything for you. We can take all the time in the world to solve this problem, it doesn't matter. To me, the only important thing, is you.
I want you to be as happy as you could possibly. I know you say that you're only happy when you're with me, you always make me make your decisions, you don't want to decide on anything. Darling, isn't that being too over-reliant on me? I love you, I hope you know that, but loving you means that I want to see you become a better person, I want you to achieve all that you can. I cannot simply give you directions to everything in life, can I?
I wish I could dear, I really wish I could. But I don't have the means to support you yet, I don't even have the means to support myself. If you really want me to be with you all the time, then I'm going to have to leave this house, and take you away from yours. I promised you a better life, a comfortable one where money won't be such a big deal. I have to work hard for that future, and so do you. I promised to take you away from all the shit that you're going through now, but I can't do that now.
We can't be together all the time. We have to endure a couple more years of anguish and torment before we can stand on our own feet, holding hands and facing the world. A couple more years dear. What is a few more years to us? Eleven more days would mark our fifth month together, we've made it so far already sweetheart. Don't give up on us yet?
We can do it, five years is just eight more fifth months.
Haven't these five months gone by in a flash? I still remember our first time holding hands at the Junction 8's B1, just in front of the escalator. I still remember all the times we sat on the benches at the MRT platforms. I still remember our first kiss in the Esplanade glass elevator, the snuggling that we did before that as well dear. I remember all the poems I wrote for you, the songs that I've sang, the smiles that we've smiled, the food that we've eaten.
I love you, Zoe Lim Wanxuan.
You said that we would take things one step at a time. You said that we would work towards our future together. We've planned everything already dear, our first wedding, the kids, the second wedding, the honeymoon, the house, everything. All those hopes and aspirations that we have for the future, all our dreams, they won't go to waste. I'll make them a reality, no, WE'll make them a reality.
It doesn't matter even if I'm not by your side all the time, I know that I'll always be in your heart, no matter how deep down or how obscured by your doubts. Think of all the happy times that we've had and all the happy times we're going to have. Don't be sad, my beloved. There will come a time when we can be together, in the comfort of each other's arms, and not have to worry about anything.
Don't lose hope dear.
We both know, the day would come, but I don't want to leave you.
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